Holiday on July 2021: Lost my uncle

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I lost my dear uncle

 Dear, you barely lost your fellow. I woke up late in the morning; it was more than 8. I thought this day will be like normal as before, just to do my July Do List. Accidentally, I had my uncle’s status after I recognized that he was very rare to upload a WhatsApp status. It was a news that informed me my uncle was gone. I did not know what was the purpose altogether? I chatted with him, asked it was not correct if he was passed. 

 Just a second before someone answered the message and defined it as a genuine message. I kept doing not trust it. Then I ordered my sister to tell to my parents. I sat down on the floor and kept texting about the condolence. My parents came in and then asked the fact. Unfortunately, I could not explain the proper line. I was breaking down. My Dad lay in his place next to my Mom. 

 I opened the pictures that I have caught before, about our video call. I looked at the date that was on June 27th, 2021, approximately a month after. My head has been calling back all memories since that moment. I cried at that day until I had a conversation from my relative, Cik Uni. Someone who I never seen would keep in touch with me. She dropped all the pictures of the funeral process. Every video she sent. I could not control my tears. 

 Until after the middle of this day, I always cried if I dealt with the video and recall the parts that mean to me. I have no intention, the time goes by and too fast, to suffer to remind it. I set my memories back by turning when I was in elementary school. My uncle was a principal on which one of favorite Junior High School in Mataram. He had a seminar in Jogja. Before he flew back to Lombok, he got to our home to stay awhile, possibly it was more than a week. 

 Then, the main pictures that I still hold are when we had a trip to Lombok for a month. He brought us to know how beautiful Lombok is. We went to Senggigi beach, Tanjung Aan, Central Lombok, and the places that presumably I missed remembering. That was extremely quick until now I still miss that occasion. I miss him. Furthermore, I had that info about his passed away, I yet miss him.

 I made my Dad cried. I strived to do not cry several times, but I had my Dad in tears. I could keep his sorrow. My uncle is my papa's brother who was guiding my dad married as one of the Lombok family candidates owing to that was impossible to bring in the whole Lombok family to get my parents marriage. I had ever seen his picture on my grandmother's album. Now still in my memoir. 

 Hey, I am texting you using his laptop, aren’t you? You have been using this device since March 2020, remember? Please after this, you must push your struggle to fix your bachelor perfectly. Probably, you can become cum laude for the rest of your semester. Do not let you uncle sad for your academic. You have promised him, haven’t you? I super genuinely trust you that you can pass your bachelor well; next, you get your magister and good job to bring a prosperous for your parent. Afterward, you must get your Ph.D. then post-doctoral. Promise me, future!!!!